When it Rains... It Pours.

ChristinaMarie
Aug 14, 2017
3 min read

I don't know about everyone else. Maybe it's just me, but I highly doubt that. I know almost everyone of you have had a moment in your life when it seems like everything is going wrong. Even the little things! You try and you try, but it does not seem to matter and you get nowhere. These past few months have been a never ending cycle of bad for me. If I tried to tell you everything that went wrong I would need to make this into a 3-part post. I'm not kidding when I say everything had been going wrong.

On top of everything that has been happening, I have also reached that point in my life when I can't decide what I want for my future. What do I want to do with the rest of my life? Particularly when it comes to what career I want. I thought I wanted to be a teacher. But, that's what I have always done. I started working at my aunts daycare when I was 15, and since then I have never managed to find my way out of childcare. So, I feel like me deciding to be a teacher was me settling for something I already knew how to do; Teach. So, I got to thinking... Do I really want to spend the rest of my life in a classroom full of kids? Because, no matter what grade/age I teach their going to be children in my eyes. And the thought of spending the rest of my days caring for other people's kids.... Not good. I literally went from wanting 6 children when I grew up to not being able to stand the sound of children in public places, in other words.... I DON'T WANT ANY KIDS. Seriously, when I was younger I was all, "I want to meet mister right and have 6 kids! Blahblahblah." and now I'm like, "I am so content with being single that I'll be lucky if a guy ever comes along that meets up to my unrealistic standards enough to make me want to give up being single. And he better be happy with either waiting a looooooooooooooooooong time for kids or not having any at all." Even then, if I ever did become crazy enough to want kids I may just freaking adopt. And who knows? Maybe in a few years, or if I ever do meet mister right, I'll end up wanting kids. It could happen. But right now, having kids is the last thing on my mind.

So, along with everything going wrong in my life, lately I've hit some kind of early adulthood... Crisis, or whatever you want to call it. I seriously can't think of any type of career that sounds like something I would want to do. I have many interests and hobbies, but nothing that I can think of making a career out of..... Unless someone wants to pay me a livable wage to sit around reading all day, that I could do! Yeah, not happening. So, for now I'm taking some time to seriously think about what I want for my future, but while I'm waiting for that inspiration to hit me I will be focusing more on my blog and I am in the process of creating a Vlog! Once I have everything up and running I will create a post about it and give you all the link to it! I'm very excited to get it started! Right now I'm going to be using it as more of a focus on my weight-loss journey, but I will also include some of the topics from my Blog. I wanted to do this because not only will a Vlog keep me accountable and help me to stay on track, anyone who views it will hopefully feel inspired and feel that my Vlog is relatable, because I can tell you now, I will not be one of those people that is happy and cheerful all the time while exercising or dieting, I will be miserable. But, to me, that is more relatable than one of those people that tell you how easy it was and how much they enjoyed it. I see those people and I'm like, "Right,let me guess, you're going to tell me you never even thought of cheating on that chocolate bar???? Don't lie to me!!!" Or those people that do nothing but smile while working out and they're so happy and chipper while I'm dying. It actually frustrates me to no end because they make it look so easy. Anyway, rant over. So, basically, you guys have my new Vlog to look forward to! As I said, my Vlog will be focusing on my weight-loss journey for now, but I will be including some other topics as well.